"I'm fat," I hear myself saying. I look in the mirror. My face has gone hot and red; I feel like I'm going to explode. "I'm fat." It sizzles under my skin, puffing me up, pushing me out, making me massive.
Weight has always been a big issue in Carmen's life. How could it not? Her mom is obsessed with the idea that thin equals beautiful, thin equals successful, thin equals the way to get what you want. Carmen knows that as far as her mom is concerned, there is only one option: be thin.
When her mother sweeps her off to live in the city, Carmen finds that her old world is disappearing. As her life spirals out of control Carmen begins to take charge of the only thing she can -- what she eats. If she were thin, very thin, could it all be different?
About the Author
Julia Bell used to be a DJ before "becoming a proper person and getting a job." She is now a writer, editor, and tutor based at the University of East Anglia where she has also established Pen & Ink., a small press. She is coeditor of Hard Shoulder (Trindal Street Press,1999) and England Calling (Weidenfeld & Nicolson, 2001) with Jackie Grey, and coeditor of The Creative Writing Coursebook (MacMillan, 2001) with Paul Magrs.
"Grim, gritty, real. Massive is an important, cautionary tale of the dangerous pairing of food and self-esteem. Thought provoking."
-- Deb Caletti, National Book Award finalist
"For every girl who's fat or thin or in between, Massive is terrific. Julia Bell's Carmen knows how it feels to want to scream but to grit your teeth instead."
-- Gail Giles, author of Shattering Glass and Dead Girls Don't Write Letters.